4th of July Weekend đź‡şđź‡¸

Happy Independence Day! What a blessing to live in a free country.

This weekend was an absolute blast. It began Friday night when Josh, Caroline, Indy, and I headed over to Josh’s grandparent’s house for dinner. We haven’t seen them in a little over a month, so it was definitely time. We enjoyed laughs, food, and chasing Caroline all around their yard. Here are some photos from Friday.

Caroline and Pappy Kim swinging.
Playing in the cozy coupe!
Grandma showing Caroline how to put the key in the ignition.
Grandma, Josh, Caroline, and of course Indy, too.
Caroline found a bench just her size!

After Grandma’s house, we headed over to my in-laws and dropped Caroline off to stay the night. It’s such a blessing to have so many people in our lives who love us and care for us. I never have to worry when she’s with family.

The next morning (Saturday), Josh and I woke up around 6am and headed out to go fishing along the Allegheny River, at Kelly Station. He mostly wanted to catch Catfish and I was just excited to fish in general. Indy also came along. Here are some photos from Saturday morning!

On our way!
It was so peaceful!
Getting things rigged up and ready to go!
Indy, looking so astute.
He got a catfish!
Indy was very intrigued by this new animal.
I love my little buddy!
Good quality time is so important for every marriage! Whether you spend it fishing, going out to eat, walking, shopping… whatever works for you and your spouse!

Once we picked Caroline up from my in-laws, we headed out to my sister’s house for a picnic! We had an absolute blast and the food was so delicious! My sister even made this delicious strawberry rhubarb pie… I NEED the recipe! Here is a bomb of photos for you!

The boys playing hacky sack!
Pool time with Caroline, Sadie, and Macie!
Hi, American cutie!
I love my sister so much!
Caroline and I! She was saying “hi”.
Caroline and YaYa!
My sister’s dog, Niva!
My sweet little niece, Sadie!
Buddy, my sister’s in-law’s dog!
My cousin, Bre, Allie, and I!
Allie and Sadie!!
Sadie and I!
The girls and Yaya!

Well, what a fun-filled day! What did you do for the 4th of July?

Reflection: Caroline’s 1st Year

On May 24th, 2019 our baby girl Caroline entered the world. She was born at 2:51pm weighing 7lbs 1oz and 19 inches long! She was 8 days late (her due date was May 16th) and I was induced. Here are some pictures of her when she was born.

She was actually born the day before Josh’s 22nd birthday – what a gift he received last year! She came into the world on a Friday and we were home by Sunday afternoon! The only major issues that occurred were that after I had her I had a fragmented placenta (my placenta did not come out in one piece and many of the pieces went back into my body and had to be manually extracted) and Caroline had a spinal dimple. Both of these were easily resolved – they gave me IV antibiotics after the extraction and no further issues ensued and Caroline’s spinal dimple was “benign”.

Being a mom has become one of the greatest blessings in my life. It is amazing how much you grow by having a child. Each month I took a little picture of Caroline and I’d like to share those now!

Here are some major milestones she has hit in the last year:

Rolled over: 3.5 months

Sitting up 5.5 months

Crawling: 6 months

Standing: 7.5 months

First tooth: 8 months

First steps: 9 months

Walking as primary mode of transportation: 10 months

Caroline’s personality is just so much fun. She loves to play, run around, and is always laughing. She sucks her thumb, but has been doing so a lot less; mostly just when I hold her or she is ready for milk/bed. We love having her as our little buddy and wouldn’t change a thing. She likes to dance to Waylon Jennings songs too! I can’t wait to continue to document her life in more detail here!

What crazy milestones did your children hit in their first years(s)?

Let God Be God

Hello! Happy Wednesday. These last couple of days I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety. Even just typing that word makes me angry, because anxiety is such a terrible thing. All of us have daily things that make us anxious. Some people are more anxious than others. We all deal with things differently.

I have previously taken a class and then just a couple months ago had the oppurtunity to facilitate this same class that is based off of the Sermon on the Mount from Matthew chapter 5. It truly is such an awesome tool that Christian can use to deal with what the class calls, “hurts, hangups, and habits.” And guess what, we all have them. It involved meeting in a small group that you develop trust with to share and deal with your issues. There’s a lot more to it, but it’s an 8 week class and it would take some time to explain it all. Something that I learned from this class and that I use often when I cannot sort my thoughts is called a Personal Inventory. It sort of helps you dive into the root of your problems. If anyone is interested in what this inventory is and how it works, please comment below and I can explain it to you.

But anyway… I decided to do an inventory this morning because I knew that was what I needed to do, and it brought me to the root of my anxiety. I feel anxious when I do not feel in control. The unknown is very scary to me. I think that is normal, but it becomes a problem when I do something called “playing God.” I decide that God is not the one who can handle my problems, I am. He is not the one in control, I am. That is where it becomes a big problem. It causes anxiety because, guess what, I am not in any way equipped to play God. He has the almighty power to handle every possible situation in our lives, but when we don’t give those situations to Him, we become worn out.

A little while ago, our Evangelist preached a sermon about Luke 10:41-42a and it immediately came to my mind when I started jotting down my thoughts.

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed – or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be take from her.”

In this passage, Mary was sitting at the Lord’s feet, listening to His teaching while Martha was running around being a typical woman (lol). She was trying to cook, clean, and make everything perfect. In the mean time, Mary knew what she needed to do, and that was listen to what Jesus had to say.

This reminds me that, in the grand scheme of things, only one thing TRULY matters. What really matters is that we are sitting at Jesus’s feet and learning from Him. Something that I have learned from Jesus is that He told us to go and make disciples. That was and still is His Great Commission: “Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:18-20. Jesus wants us to make disciples as He did. However, how this may play out in each of our individual lives will be different, but as long as we remember that only one thing is necessary, and that is following in the steps of Jesus, then we are on the right path.

During this period of anxiety, I have been thinking a lot about my job as a nurse. I do believe that a lot of my stress comes from my work right now. As I said, my anxiety stems from feeling out of control and not knowing what is next. I am still very new to nursing, and home health care is a scary thing because you are alone in someone’s house and you are the only one there to help. You are supposed to educate your patients and help them to make healthier choices. I often do not feel qualified to do what I am doing.

Also, we work about one weekend a month. What a blessing compared to pretty much any other nursing job. But, for me, I absolutely dread that weekend because we are on call. If we get a call for a referral on Saturday, I have to go and see that patient on Sunday. Which is fine, because I get to schedule when I want to see them, but it’s more of the issue of not knowing until Saturday what my day is going to be like on Sunday, especially when I am trying to plan around Church meetings.

I spoke with my supervisor last night about possibly putting in my two week’s notice. I was like WOW, that was a rash decision. But it felt right. She offered that I could take a little break for maybe a month and then see if I am ready to come back. I could have cried. That was the perfect situation. I don’t know if I want to be done with this job or with nursing in general, but I do know that I need a break. I have overwhelmed myself in more ways than one and I know my priorities (God first, family second, and everything else after that).

Now, if you want to know something about me, you have to know this. I cannot sit still. Some may blame it on the coffee, but I would say it is a personality trait. It’s not that I’m jittery or anything, I just love to get things done. I cannot sit at home everyday (but being with Caroline everyday is a dream come true). Work is a great thing for me, it gets me out of the house and helps me to work my brain some. My parents have a family business called Southbound Enterprises; it is a real estate company that everyone in my immediate family works for. My dad is owner/manager and is a Real Estate Broker (he also works for an oil and gas company), my mom does ALL of the rent check processing, bill-paying, and so much more, my brother and his wife both are real estate agents and my brother is well on his way to also being a broker, and my sister is the advertiser; she runs all of the social media, website, and blog. I have often times thought about joining their team of awesomeness and I think that now would be a better time than ever to try it out. I am not having to give up nursing completely, but just take a little break and see what that does for my mental health. And in the mean time, I can help my family’s business out. I asked if they needed help with anything and my dad said, “I don’t even know where to start. We need a lot of help, and I know you like to get stuff done.” My dad and I are very similar in our work ethic and tactics. We both love to get things done, and quickly. I am hoping that this endeavor will be a fun, but challenging one.

I hate to take a break from nursing, but I think it is best right now. God always has a way of working things out for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). If you could, please say a little prayer for me to trust God in this situation and where I am at now. May He increase my faith so that I can trust in Him instead of myself. And lastly, may He give me wisdom to make a right decision as far as my career, while keeping it all in perspective; only one thing is necessary.

Date Night and Cousin Time!

As I mentioned in my last post, Josh and I got to have a little date night on Friday and then we stayed over my parent’s house with both Caroline and Sadie, my sister’s daughter. To say they had a blast would be an understatement.

Josh and I went to Longhorn Steakhouse for dinner (yum!!!) and then to Dick’s Sporting Goods to shop around. They had a huge sale and I got a pair of hunting pants. They are normally $79.99… I got them for $33! I can’t wait to try them out in archery season!

While we were gone, the girls played their little hearts out with Pap Pap and YaYa (my parents). They even got a bath together! I have a really cute picture of that, but I figured it would probably be best to not post it to the internet (lol). A more appropriate, and totally adorable one is them sitting on the couch together!

Later that night, they shared a popsicle with Pap Pap!

They both woke up at 6:30am (oof) and were ready to play as soon as they got up! But first… more couch time together…

They ate blueberry waffles together and then played with old remotes that my parents kept for that very reason.

My parent’s dog, Brandy, is a food mongrel and also enjoyed the girls’ breakfast time!

Caroline & Brandy.

When Dad and Josh headed off to the Work Day at our church building, Mom and I read our devotionals for the morning. We’ve been doing them together with my sister on the Bible app, which is super awesome because you can leave comments for each other to read. I loved this quote from the latest devotional we started: “Plan in faith, execute with wisdom, and choose not to worry.” This devo was talking about how when we worry all the time we begin to worship our worry and are not casting our cares on God.

What is your go to scripture when you are having a hard day?

What are you up to today?

Happy Summer!

Hi everyone! Welcome to my first blog post… so far so good I guess! I am excited to begin to share my life with you all and also have this blog as a fun memory book to look back upon. I love to take pictures and put them in photo books, but to have a virtual type of diary to express my feelings and thoughts and reflect upon all of the blessings that God has granted to me… now we’re talking!

What better a time than when I have a one year old? I always try my best to remember every detail of what Caroline, our sweet little girl, does and how she acts as she grows. This is the perfect platform. So… let’s get started!

Today has truly been great so far! I woke up around 5am to see Josh off to work. This is my study time in the Bible and time to present my praises, thanks, and requests before God. Then, I did some stuff around the house. The biggest struggle of having a toddler is trying to get things done while they wander around and hopefully don’t get into anything dangerous.

Today Caroline decided to play with our K-cups that are on the lowest shelf in our kitchen. I figured, hey those are harmless and would be good for her to stack. A little while later, I hear her smacking her lips. I walk over to find that she bit a hole in one of them and was actually eating coffee grounds… no wonder she had so much energy today!

After our fun morning shenanigans, we went for a quick walk with Indy, our golden retriever. Then off to the park for some play time with Church friends.

Tonight, Josh and I are going on a little “Date Night” while my parents watch Caroline for us. Then we are going to stay the night at their house so that Josh can go straight to our church’s Work Day tomorrow at 8am – they live a little closer than we do, which makes things nice. Maybe I will blog about these adventures…

What have your days looked like lately? What is your favorite part of summer?